Thursday, March 11, 2010

Ennui: I have it. Do you?

I haven’t written a blog post in a while now. It’s not because I haven’t had stuff to write about. On the contrary, I've had tons going on: I got props at work from my boss for being so awesome, my beloved childhood pet died (she was 16 years old), I got sick with Norwalk, I got to cover a Paul Okenfold event for a website as a guest blogger and I bought a new coat (yes, another coat… don’t judge!).

I just haven’t been writing because I’ve been lazy.

In fact, I’ve been lazy about everything lately: Making dinner, going swimming, reading… all things I love that I haven’t been doing because I just don’t feel like I have the energy anymore. I just want to sit on the couch and watch The Wire.

Has anyone else felt this disenchanted, ennui-filled, lazy attitude lately? Or is it just me?

I am tempted to blame the weather, but I’m too lazy to go outside, point at the sky and say “this is all your fault!”

I am tempted to blame my job, but I’m too lazy to get into an argument with myself over my direction in life because then I would have to admit to myself how seriously lazy I am… even thinking about being lazy is exhausting and is making me more lazy… if that’s even possible.

I keep waiting for something to happen to drag me out of this funk, but nothing has happened yet. And quite frankly, waiting is making me want to be lazy some more. Before, I was in a creative funk, but this blog dragged me out of it. Now I’m in an “ennui” funk and I’m not sure what to do about it… I’ve never had ennui before; I’ve been disenchanted often, but never ennui! Like all questions in life I turn to the great giver of information… I Googled it. And for once in my life Google has failed me. There is no real cure for ennui… the best suggestion was to exercise *rolls eyes*. Like I said before, even swimming doesn’t interest me, and that’s like my favourite thing in the whole world! I write this blog post, not as a documentation of my lazy ennui (because that would be boring), but as a cry for help. Anyone with suggestions on how to make my ennui go away would be greatly appreciated. All suggestions must be submitted in writing for posterity’s sake. Thank you.

2 comments:

  1. As depressing as it is, exercise does work wonders. How ironic, eh? The last thing you want to do is move. What's the cure? MOVING! Lame.

    But I understand your predicament. You just get into a routine, and have no motivation to get beyond it to make life seem that little bit more interesting. Have you considered taking a class? Like a pottery class or something? If it's at a regular time each week, you'll be forced to leave your house for a good reason, and when you get there, you'll be doing something out of your comfort zone!

    Now if only I could take my own advice! ;)

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  2. But moving (i.e. excercise) was part of my regular routine and now I've lost interest.... and most nights (and weekends) I am busy with social occasions, so I don't know when I'd have time for a class. Although, pottery does sound interesting! Le sigh... I just have le ennuie :S

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